Older

I have friends who are older than me and who are just now starting their families. I feel old. I also have friends who are younger than me that have children who are older than mine. So do they feel old? Or since they are young it doesn't phase them? Either way, I am starting into the season of life I am excited about. I have been wanting to be 30 for about 2 years now. I still have a few more years to go until that actually happens, but maybe its gonna feel like it earlier. I desire to have my children to be children and not babies/toddlers. Have a strengthened marriage that is so tightly woven that you don't know where each of us begins and the other ends! Yeah those are my desires. I feel like I have been under the wings of others all my life, that I would like to have a chance to fly with them and not under or over. I have needed to be refined by God's fire of grace to grow to this point in my life. I have not been grateful for this refining thus far, but I am getting there. I love my kids, and my husband. I am hoping to learn to love more, and to share my knowledge with others.