Temptation

There are no words to really describe the emotions that I am feeling from the dream this morning. The one thing that is maintaining in my mind is precious words from .

"When Satan tempts me to despair
And tells me of the guilt within,
Upward I look and see Him there
Who made an end of all my sin."

This line gives me the choice. To give in to the temptation to lay in bed and cry and be angry. Or I can look up and see my Lord, who has given me the gift of life. "end of all my sin" !!! All my sin, wow that alot. The "little white" lies, the deception, manipulation, and the evil that spews out from my mouth and heart.

This beautiful song doesn't stop there. It goes deeper to tell of the intense love that God has poured out upon us sinful creatures. I love Him because he first loved me.

"Because the sinless Savior died
My sinful soul is counted free.
For God the just is satisfied
To look on Him and pardon me."

O how I long to be in heaven and be "bored" singing God's Glory all day long, forever.

Whether I needed a back to reality look at myself and my distress, or if it was a temptation to despair. I will look upward today "and see Him there, who made an end of all my sin."

Spring

Spring seems to be in the air. I found a cute, extremely easy bunny pattern. And the other thing is supposed to be a chicken. I think it needs wings or something. The kids love them. Okay they actually love throwing them across the room. At least its cheap entertainment! I found the fabric at Jo-Ann's on clearance for 97 cents. Yes I mean cheap entertainment. I might attempt these fabric eggs during a nap time. I do need to temper my extra time at the sewing machine. I need to focus on finishing little girl's Easter Dress.

time

taking the time to spend with your kids or taking the time to do the laundry. It all takes time, and motivation. I am having spurts of motivation. In the midst of a spurt I have taken on more than I should. I decided to clean my coffee maker. Then I decided since one was clean I should clean the other one. Well it took forever to finish the second one. (I know what your thinking, who needs 2 coffee pots right?) When the laundry is done, and the dishes are done, and I have a meal plan I feel so much better. I have the motivation to do more laundry and dishes, and make the meals. Funny how that spiral works. But its also funny how it just a few hours of laziness can blow it all up. Then it takes so much time to get spinning again. I need help starting my circle. Maybe some ring around the rosy will work.

Talk

When do you know that the door is closing? When your heart is heavy laden, how does one sort through it all? I have a somber stillness when I think on these things. Talking helps, but that doesn't always come out the way you want. Writing might help. We'll see.

Talk of the degradation of things meant for good, hovers over head. I want to believe that there are false reports out there and that is the information we are receiving. But I know that people are sinners and choose to do bad things all the time. I look at my own heart and see the brokenness. Is this a problem? Yes. no. I'm not sure.

We know that things can go wrong. What is our hearts desire? Whats a better question is What is God's will and desire for us? Are we to be homely or are we to be jet setters? Then after the individual conclusions, we must come together as one.

What is the purpose of the recent events in our life in regards to our current situations. We have enjoyed the abounding blessings from our diligence. I pray we will continue to be diligent.

Designer

I purchase clearanced curtains at the local Target. They matched my wall color so perfectly! I love having color on my walls. These are not the ones that match so perfectly, but they are a coordinating set for the bedrooms. I like the red as an accent color.

I have standard panels, but a non standard home, so I wanted to customize them. Here is the first completed set of designer curtains. Okay, they might not be totally complete. I want to add a liner to them, someday. But they are are one of 10 windows actually covered. I like them.

Move

The prospect of a big move. The things that cross your mind get jumbled into stress. Boxes, cost of living, the dog, language barrier? This is such a happy event to think about. I am actually super excited to just purge a lot of things out of my house. I purged a lot moving locally, but internationally? I can justify throwing out more and more things. I feel like a grandma ready to start giving things away before she kicks the bucket! I know, I am coming back, and coming back to the same house. But it doesn't make it any easier, or harder for that matter.

Chai

I found a great looking recipe here at Back to her Roots. I have been enjoying more and more tea lately, but I haven't been able to give up the richness, and fullness that the coffee gives to me. This recipe looks promising to me in that richness regard. I can't wait to make this for my good friends and my loving husband.

2 c. water

1 black tea bags
1 cinnamon stick
2 whole cloves
1/4 tsp ground ginger
6 cardamom seeds, crushed
2 c. milk
1/4 c. sugar
Cinnamon for garnish

Bring first six ingredients in a medium sauce pan to a boil. Reduce heat, cover and simmer for 5 minutes. Add in milk and sugar, bring back to a boil and remove from heat. Strain into mugs, sprinkle with cinnamon and serve.

Makes 2 large mugs or 4 small.

Click over to here to see a more detailed approach. Plus wonderful pictures, that I am very jealous of, but none the less, its her recipe and not mine. Enjoy