7.5.12
Bless
I want to know how to do this. Please let me know how to make it through without fumbling over myself and completely wrecking the whole thing. I have good intentions. I promise I really do. But things just come out wrong. I get in my own way. I have three left feet instead of just the normal two.
To say I am uneasy about most of the things I do is sometimes an understatement. Not always though. I am immensely blessed. But with blessings comes the responsibilities to them. That is when I seem to have the most trouble. Maybe next time I will get this right. Or maybe not...
29.4.12
Answered
Yes. The answer was yes. She said yes, we said yes, they said yes. Most importantly God said yes, the time is now. Time to add a little one into our home. He is so small. He is a treasure. He keeps us awake at night. My hands are full, full of great things. Full of God's great gifts. Full of grace poured out onto me. And yes sometime my hands are just dirty and covered in poo or spit up. But joyous nonetheless. God has to richly blessed us. God's timing is perfect. Never what I would have expected. And that is why He is God and I am not. Praise God!
23.1.12
Call
I am hesitant to even talk about some of these things. Not that talking will make them disappear, but it means I am overflowing with excitement.
We have received a phone call for which we have been waiting a long time for!!! YES! Specifics don't even matter at this point. I am overwhelmed with so many emotions. I am first of all so thankful to God's faithfulness. Even when I was doubtful this kind of thing would ever happen. Or I was scared that I was forcing it, and it wasn't God's plan for our lives. I am scared. I am full of peace. I want to cry. I want to cry GLORY! I want to shout from the rooftops, but then I want to hide and just clean my house and freeze meals for the tough times ahead. I also want to hide and not tell anyone just in case.
What if... what if... what if...
God has all of these in His hand and is in control. I am so glad I am not in control. I can't even imagine how I would screw this up. Seriously.
God had given to us a Heart for the orphan. We have now been given the opportunity to be in line for a child. We will patiently wait for God's timing to bring that child home to us. Whether it is this particular child or if He has other plans for this child. We will praise His Glorious Name either way.
Lord, we praise you for your wonderful faithfulness. We pray that your hand be upon K. Keep her safe. Soften her heart to the amazing provision you have provided. Lord we thank you for keeping us. Allow us to be ambassadors of Christ for Your Glory. Keep the Evil Ones minions at bay from our home and family life. I pray this will not overwhelm the little ones already in our home. I pray this will be a great opportunity for us to proclaim your awesome adoption of us into Your family. Thank you for this chance and glimpse of your goodness.
We Pray in Christ's finished work on the cross.
Amen
We have received a phone call for which we have been waiting a long time for!!! YES! Specifics don't even matter at this point. I am overwhelmed with so many emotions. I am first of all so thankful to God's faithfulness. Even when I was doubtful this kind of thing would ever happen. Or I was scared that I was forcing it, and it wasn't God's plan for our lives. I am scared. I am full of peace. I want to cry. I want to cry GLORY! I want to shout from the rooftops, but then I want to hide and just clean my house and freeze meals for the tough times ahead. I also want to hide and not tell anyone just in case.
What if... what if... what if...
God has all of these in His hand and is in control. I am so glad I am not in control. I can't even imagine how I would screw this up. Seriously.
God had given to us a Heart for the orphan. We have now been given the opportunity to be in line for a child. We will patiently wait for God's timing to bring that child home to us. Whether it is this particular child or if He has other plans for this child. We will praise His Glorious Name either way.
Lord, we praise you for your wonderful faithfulness. We pray that your hand be upon K. Keep her safe. Soften her heart to the amazing provision you have provided. Lord we thank you for keeping us. Allow us to be ambassadors of Christ for Your Glory. Keep the Evil Ones minions at bay from our home and family life. I pray this will not overwhelm the little ones already in our home. I pray this will be a great opportunity for us to proclaim your awesome adoption of us into Your family. Thank you for this chance and glimpse of your goodness.
We Pray in Christ's finished work on the cross.
Amen
22.1.12
craft time
Some fabric that is 20 years old plus some new Fancy fabric equals a perfect opportunity for a great project. I made a "greeter deterrent" loosely based on the tutorial here. Loosely because I don't usually measure things after I purchase them. I just roll with the flow.
don't mind the mess in the background. I think it turned out Fabulous! The mommy of the new little one is not frilly at all. Providentially the colors match the carseat exactly. I love it. I loved it so much I wanted to keep it. But alas, I do not even own an infant carseat at the moment. So therefore I had to give it away. I love making things for others!
24.10.11
T4A
I enjoyed the T4A conference more than I can express right now. I am still processing all that I learned. Main things I learned? Gospel. Keep motivations in check. Submission. Grace. There is an orphan crisis, and it is HUGE.
Its so easy to just watch the precious adoption videos and say, "wow, that is such a sweet thing to do. Let's adopt. It looks like such a blessing." When we need a reality check. That is a video. A temporary suspension of disbelief. The words they say are much more pregnant than they appear. "it was a struggle to have to leave our son in that orphanage." cue sad kind of music. Struggle? hmm.. lets camp out on that word.
Struggle. This little word could mean, many days of heartache. Many tears. Many unspoken words. Emotions running wild. Stress on a marriage. Depression... But all we hear is that one sentence, and see the beautiful family playing together. Happily playing together.
Reality check. The real world is the glorious story of adoption by God. God made man for himself. We are his possession. What is Gods understanding of adoption? It the story of the Bible.
What is my motivation for adopting? Wow, really? That's the question of the day? I haven't quite processed that one just yet. I will need to come back to that.
Pray. Pray without ceasing. Pray in everything. James 5 tells us that God answers prayer. Pray with boldness. Pray specifically asking for those things you want. God's Will will be done. Might not be what you asked for, but His will is going to be done.
What then? after my reality check and praying boldly Whats next. Seek wise counsel. Ever wonder why this is? I never thought about it. When we are praying, we are seeking God's counsel. But He is not gonna give us a talking bush on fire. (I wish) Seek others around you. Those who have been through these types of issues. Even if you know what they are gonna say. But then also ask yourself, who am I avoiding? Huh? Avoiding. Who do I not want to ask their advice because I know its gonna conflict with my hopes. If we avoid some people to seek advice from, we might be blinding ourselves. Our vision has already been clouded by the Fall. Seek counsel.
Patience. Must be Patient. Pray. Seek counsel and wait.
Its so easy to just watch the precious adoption videos and say, "wow, that is such a sweet thing to do. Let's adopt. It looks like such a blessing." When we need a reality check. That is a video. A temporary suspension of disbelief. The words they say are much more pregnant than they appear. "it was a struggle to have to leave our son in that orphanage." cue sad kind of music. Struggle? hmm.. lets camp out on that word.
Struggle. This little word could mean, many days of heartache. Many tears. Many unspoken words. Emotions running wild. Stress on a marriage. Depression... But all we hear is that one sentence, and see the beautiful family playing together. Happily playing together.
Reality check. The real world is the glorious story of adoption by God. God made man for himself. We are his possession. What is Gods understanding of adoption? It the story of the Bible.
What is my motivation for adopting? Wow, really? That's the question of the day? I haven't quite processed that one just yet. I will need to come back to that.
Pray. Pray without ceasing. Pray in everything. James 5 tells us that God answers prayer. Pray with boldness. Pray specifically asking for those things you want. God's Will will be done. Might not be what you asked for, but His will is going to be done.
What then? after my reality check and praying boldly Whats next. Seek wise counsel. Ever wonder why this is? I never thought about it. When we are praying, we are seeking God's counsel. But He is not gonna give us a talking bush on fire. (I wish) Seek others around you. Those who have been through these types of issues. Even if you know what they are gonna say. But then also ask yourself, who am I avoiding? Huh? Avoiding. Who do I not want to ask their advice because I know its gonna conflict with my hopes. If we avoid some people to seek advice from, we might be blinding ourselves. Our vision has already been clouded by the Fall. Seek counsel.
Patience. Must be Patient. Pray. Seek counsel and wait.
5.10.11
Be Strong
Seeing others loving and living the promise sometimes hurts. I am in love with Adoption. But God's timing for our next child to come home is really not what I was expecting. My heart aches to hold him/her. My emotions run wild when I peer into the lives of others completing their families.
Psalm 27:14
Wait for the LORD; Be strong and let your heart take courage; Yes, wait for the LORD.
Psalm 27:14
Wait for the LORD; Be strong and let your heart take courage; Yes, wait for the LORD.
2.9.11
change
I don't like change right? But I am constantly in a state of change. That is how God has created us. To be transformed from one degree of glory to another. Meaning we will be continually molded by our wonderful Father until he takes us into glorious heaven above.
But, when I choose a change, I love it. Ususally. Until my set of plans are not completed as expected. All I want is for things to go my way, how I chose, once, just once. My mind's eye has this beautiful vision of how things will go and how they will look, and how they should be. When real life doesn't live up to my expectations, I have been known to unravel. (Lord help me to keep it together).
But, when I choose a change, I love it. Ususally. Until my set of plans are not completed as expected. All I want is for things to go my way, how I chose, once, just once. My mind's eye has this beautiful vision of how things will go and how they will look, and how they should be. When real life doesn't live up to my expectations, I have been known to unravel. (Lord help me to keep it together).
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