17.3.14

Focus

How do I make a change? I mean a real lasting change. Not a New Year's resolution. I think I might be diving into a depression again, but not sure of the cause. Sleeping for most of a day without being physically ill; that's not normal. 

So I have a newborn who wakes me up one or two times  night, but that doesn't really explain the exhaustion I felt. Feeling as though I couldn't close my eyes or I would be asleep. And no amount of coffee helped. So I think I need a change of some sort. 

I need to be less lazy, more productive and better motivated. So how do I start? What does it mean to me to be less lazy and more productive?  Here are a few things I desire for my life on a weekly basis. 
1. Play games with my children
2. Actually do excersice 
3. Keep the laundry under control
4. Read more
5. Cook more and healthier 

That's all. That's what I desire. That's not hard right? For whatever reason, it's been hard for me to be motivated to do these things on a consistent schedule.
Here I am writing these desires down in hopes of being reminded of my goals. And having a clear list should keep my focus on these things and not on the distractions that keep me busy.